December 1st, 2003

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I'm supposed to be productive today. So far, it's not happening. I'm easily distracted and being attacked by the cats on a regular basis. At least there aren't any deadlines I need to stick to.
  • Current Music
    Flake-Jack Johnson-Brushfire Fairytales
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One of my characters just came to the realization that everything seems easy since there's nowhere to go but up (she's in a life or death situation with death the near-certain outcome). It's just occurred to me that this is the reason that I'm having such a hard time with some of the decisions in my life - I could easily choose the "wrong thing" and have things get worse from where they are. In fact, I have it pretty good right now. In my quest for making things better, I could make them unbearable.

Every once in a while, I glance over and see my little Japanese Buddha and it reminds me that I'd asked him to help me find contentment with whatever my current situation happens to be. His visage is still missing one eye, a reminder that I'm working on this dream of contentment. Sometimes I wonder if it's ever going to happen.
  • Current Music
    Losing Hope-Jack Johnson-Brushfire Fairytales