August 16th, 2004

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My webserver was hacked sometime yesterday. This means that it will be down until further notice. We've got to do some upgrading and fixing and securing before it comes back up.

I'm wondering "why me?" Was it just a matter of time? Was there something that made it a target? Was there any reason at all? I'm trying not to feel robbed, cheated, violated. It's not working well though.
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My husband is planning to apply for a job in another state. If in fact he does apply, he is likely to get the job. He has a friend on the inside who'll help him get in. I want to be really supportive of him, and if he wants the job encourage him. At the same time, it's stressing me out. It kind of puts everything on hold until he either gets it or not. I don't really want to paint the house twice, or make lots of expensive changes if we'll be moving soon. Because if he gets it, we're moving. I won't stay here and do a job I don't care about. I can move and do that.

All of a sudden I'm in the Bermuda triangle of change and trying hard to keep my bearings. I guess I just have to keep going with the things I know to be true and worry about the rest when it becomes urgent.