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Anxiety

Yesterday I managed to have an attack of anxiety. In fact, just thinking about it now is stressing me out. My husband and I were sitting in the restaurant at dinner, talking and having a good time. We were actually taking our time and enjoying dinner, relaxing with the beer and chips and excellent salsa. I finished up my food and 5 minutes later was waiting impatiently for the check. I started to feel more overwhelmed with every minute. Granted, I'm pulled to the breaking point right now with all of the things that we're trying to do. I'm making new curtains for upstairs, trying to write a novel, pikcing, painting and installing molding and a fireplace, and trying to plan the holidays all at once. Just listing that out makes it seems like soooo much more!

Anyway, I started to feel a little panicked as I was discovering all the vacations that are planned and the things that I need to do. My husband agreed to help with some of the chores so I could take the time to write my novel, and he got us out of the restaurant as quickly as we could go. After doing the writing last night, I was pretty calm. I'm still a little stressed about the number of vacations we've committed to, but those are easy to drop. I wish it was easier to get my project listing back up, that would help calm me the rest of the way down.


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I kinda think your job anxiety is now starting to spill into life anxiety. That's when you start to approach breaking point.

You're right, but it's pretty mild. I just had a moment of too many flying vacations coupled with dang it, I wish I didn't have to wait a week to make a decision on the job. Thank goodness its gone and I'm ok with waiting. I think it's the prolonged clutter around the house that's really getting to me, and we're making progress on that every week.

You will get there, madam. We always do.

Dump the sucky trips and stick with the fun ones!

And don't worry about the curtains, or any of your other home stuff either for that matter, because it's not going anywhere.

I know that doesn't help, and I'm also stressing out about my fireplace and the Christmas party and my job and my carpet and the giant TV my husband has just bought, so I'm just trying to project a calm presence onto you somehow.

Seriously consider quitting your job. At least think about your options. Decide what you would do if you didn't have that promotion dangling in front of you, and then give it a timeline. There will always be something positive possibly hanging out there waiting for you, but you need to decide if it's worth it, and if it would really lessen your stress level at all. Your health is way more important than any job or house projects. You know this.

I prescribe sushi!

I think I'll take you up on that prescription. Next week or so. Because this week is toooooo full. Unless... Thursday?

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