savannah (onsafari) wrote,

Work vs. business

I'm sitting here, at a desk I will inhabit for another 8 days, wondering what I'm supposed to be doing. There's no work, everyone is on vacation. However I have a coworker sitting on the other side of this half wall in my workspace, so I cannot in good conscience, whip out the crocheting I brought with me to work on. I just can't being myself to make a spectacle of the fact that there's nothing to do and they really shouldn't be sad about letting me go. So here I sit, attempting to fake it.

I'm no longer really concerned about not having a job to start next year. I'm sure that will change around tax time, but for now I've chosen to view it as an opportunity to attempt to kick the business pygma_lion and I started into high gear. I've got plans and ideas and several people have offered to take brochures to work to display. I'm hoping that will generate some business. I'm also going to make a concerted effort to get stuff posted to eBay for sale. It's rather exciting and scary at the same time. I'm actually going to try to make my dream come true! And if it doesn't work out, I'll just go back to working for someone else.

Of course, the transition inside my brain from being "unemployed" to "self-employed" has not been an easy one. I'm still having anxiety dreams and periodic attacks of panic. But our budget can take it - even if it means putting the new house on hold indefinitely. But isn't that a small sacrifice to make for a dream? So during my waking hours I remain enthusiastic and ready for the challenge.
Tags: business, dreaming, work
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