savannah (onsafari) wrote,

Vacation Anxiety

For the last couple of days, I've been on edge. Irritable, cranky, short-tempered. This has been a departure from the calm, happy person I've come to know and love over the last couple of months and it's distressed me greatly. Why was I backsliding? What was going on in my brain that was different than things have been?

This morning, I figured it out. We're going on vacation Friday. It's only a couple of days, so I've been telling myself it's not a big deal and I shouldn't worry about putting together a plan or big lists or anything. But it's a vacation nonetheless, and traditionally I'm bad at vacations. I end up cranky the whole time and shouting at people or sulking.*

I finally figured out that keeping all the little things that need to happen in my head was making me crazy. So I wrote them down, and I've been crossing them off the list one by one. I even found some stuff that could have cause massive headaches if I hadn't done it today and handled it all.

Suddenly I'm calm again. And really looking forward to this mini-break. Look out vacation, here I come.

*Yes, I realize this is no fun, nor is it really a vacation. It's no fun for me either, thus the work on changing it.
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